Thursday, December 8, 2011

A new resolute resolution

This will be what I would consider a preemptive new-year's resolution. A new "year" can begin at any time right? So what is this new resolution you ask? You are reading it, right now. I wish to make known more of my thoughts so that they just don't disappear.

It's very interesting thinking about all the things I have experienced and, though my memory is yet keen, I know there are things that I don't remember about my life. I always ask myself: "Am I in the right place in my life that I need to be right now?" I feel I have been led to the path I have thus far followed. I also have this unshakable feeling that I have been destined for much more than the meager existence I am currently experiencing.

Then a question is asked: "What are you doing to get from where you are to where you feel destined to arrive?" This is obviously the hard part for me and probably most people. I have so many grandiose visions of my future  (and I believe I have been blessed with many of the gifts and tools to achieve them) but I still don't know how to get there. That's the rub. I can't seem to put one foot in front of the other for fear that if I do it the wrong way some of these visions I have for my future will not come to pass or I won't be able to achieve them. So then I am stuck in a loop; and with the weight of other things still pulling on me the loop inevitably becomes a downward spiral...

I don't mean for this to sound depressing. I wish to merely express my thoughts in order for me to clarify to my own self that what I am thinking is what I just described.

So. How to proceed? What first step do I take? Which one will lead me closer to the future I hope to have for myself and my family? Probably any of them. I am sure that the most important thing fight now will be to just take a step and then see where it leads. Spinning around in my limbo loop does no good for anyone except the adversary of all things good.

I believe that posting this thought wandering is a good step. My brain has far too long sat idle. It needs good stimulation and this will begin to facilitate that. I do also wish to continue the original purpose of this blog: to expand my thoughts about my own fiction and maybe draw conclusions for my own life from the lessons I can put into these fictional characters' lives.

I hope that, whoever you are reading this, you have been able to draw your own conclusions from my meanderings. I also hope that it made some sense. Until next time, may the road rise up to meet you, adieu.

1 comment:

Andy said...

It sounds like you have taken a step. Now time to clarify the direction with clear goals, tangible achievements and results that will motivate you. I love what Elder Wirthlin said:

"I urge you to examine your life. Determine where you are and what you need to do to be the kind of person you want to be. Create inspiring, noble and righteous goals that fire your imagination and create excitement in your heart. And then keep your eye on them. Work consistently toward achieving them."

I also love what President Hinckley said:

"One of the great tragedies we witness almost daily is the tragedy of men of high aim and low achievement. Their motives are noble. Their proclaimed ambition is praiseworthy. Their capacity is great. But their discipline is weak. They succumb to indolence. Appetite robs them of will."

Find a good balance between these two. Fire your imagination and determination to complete. That is my feedback.